Everlasting Guilty Crown by Supercell

English Translation

The world is trying to bring about the end
And no one is trying to stop it.
—It’s starting.
The symphony of destruction echoes out.
The rain that falls sounds almost like the tone of tears.

Tell me.

Do people who control and are controlled
One day forget what it means to love
Because of the hatred in their hearts,
And attack others?

I can hear this song coming to me.
All you who have life,
The truth is inside your heart
Because even in times in which I must go to the stormy ocean,
It gives you strength
That never hesitates.

However, the further we move ahead, the stronger the wind gets,
And so the flame of hope starts to go out.
“Hand over the light!” The people scramble for it,
And once it comes to this, people kill each other,
Their tears dried.

Notice it.

Your eyes are for acknowledging each other.
Your voice is to convey your feelings.
Your hand is to hold with the one who is precious to you.

I can hear this song coming to me.
All of you who have nowhere to go,
Hope is in your hearts
Because even in blazing flames,
It gives you a strength
That will never be scathed.

Are those things you tried to protect
The things you truly loved?
You gaze at your hand dyed in crimson
And finally realize the foolishness you have committed,
Admit it to be a mistake, and
Cry without an end for your sins.

I can hear this song coming to me.
All you who have life,
The truth is inside your heart
The stormy ocean has quieted,
No matter if the things you have lost are countless.

I can hear this song coming to me.
All of you who have nowhere to go,
Hope is in your hearts
When you overcome the night of sadness,
I am sure you will come out
Holding the strength to live on.


On Change and Parallel Lines

Sometimes you’ll meet people with whom you’d spend almost every waking hour with. You’ll feel so connected with them that it’s going to be immensely difficult to imagine a life without them. They become a habit… becoming a point where everything else in your life seemed to be revolving around. You are a compass always pointing at their direction. They define what’s normal in your life. 

You see something interesting and you immediately turn to your side to tell them about it, expecting them to always be there. 
You have a story in your mind and they are the first person you want to tell it to. 
You just parted to go home and you can’t wait until morning to see them again. 

At that point, you don’t realize that even such wonderful things can be temporary. Yet this life offers a multitude of unpredictable experiences and paths, that even if you try your hardest to hold on, life still goes on. It won’t stop. The trajectory of your life is your own. It doesn’t depend on others. 
So you realize that happiness doesn’t last forever. Things change. People change. Goals in life change. Nothing stays the same. Same thing must happen with the perfect haven you have formed. No matter how much you struggle against it… change eventually does happen.

And one day, your time together will be over. You will begin to place more importance on different things, focus on different aspects of your life, and make different choices. Little by little, you won’t notice it coming, but you’re drifting apart. Then one day, you’ll realize that you have nothing to talk about because you have nothing in common. Your conversations become intentional, and you become careful in your choice of words. It’s not spontaneous anymore. You will remember the time when ‘fun’ was about spilling your mind to this person, just saying everything and anything. Now, you have to look for something to talk about. There will be an awkward silence, followed by nervous eye-shifting finger-twiddling gestures which indicate your attempt to excuse yourself from this torture. 
That’s when it’ll hit you. Your time has passed. It’s time to move on. 
It’ll be hard because the time you spent with them made you feel complete, like you don’t need anything else and you knew the true meaning of happiness. You want it to be the same. But this person standing next to you has changed, and so have you. If your lives were a line, you’d figure out that yours and theirs are going the opposite direction, and the time when you felt one with them represents a tiny dot marking the X intersect. If you can have just one wish, you’d ask the genie or whoever the gift-giver was to return you to that time and place you remember so vividly in your memory… the time that seemed to have merged the past, present, and future in one special moment… where the surroundings blurred and the world can fall into darkness, but that’s perfectly fine because the only thing that mattered anyway was already within your special sphere… you wish to return to that time just to feel it one more time. But you also know that there is no going back. You have to accept change and look forward to the positive things that come with it. You have to welcome change because there exists out there, someone whose line runs parallel to yours, and will never part. 

Inviting Destruction

I cant take this anymore. 

Discrimination. Racism. Sexism. Apartheid. War. Genocide. The list goes on.
The world is clearly on the path to ruin. People of the world love destruction.
Why would people want destruction?
In a time where progress and technology are making leaps… everything is easier than ever before, access to information, to medicine, communication… but it’s also becoming harder to find any meaning in living… so I guess conflict is IN because it’s exciting. It’s news. It’s entertainment!
No. Wait. I take that back. We’ve been down this road forever. Brutality and violence isn’t something new, it’s a repetition of history. It’s humanity’s ‘thing’.
Mankind is racing fast towards their own demise, and nothing we can do will completely stop it. 
We can only hope to slow it down by taking preventive measures and improving futilely the laws of the world…. and we must do it in a world where anarchy presides as the only governing system. 
So why do anything at all? Is there any sense in doing something at all?
No matter what we do, it’s leads to mistake after another mistake. We keep trying to stop history from repeating itself. But a repetition of the past is where we always end up. 
No matter where we look, it’s the same issues, the same problems, it’s all the same since the beginning of civilization. 
Perhaps the problem is with civilization itself. 
I’m tired of feeling helpless… unable to help the weak, the minorities, and the underdog of society.
But what’s the use? Even justice is futile. Right after gaining some influence, these very same underdogs will jump at the first chance to trample on others as well… because that is the only way to stay in power. Society NEEDS an enemy. The privileged needs a counterbalance, someone or something to exclude so that their own people can keep working together out of fear of the ‘other’. 
Achieving equality have never been and will never be a conclusion, just another transition to the next version of the same persistent inequality. People who experienced suffering and are helped, cause pain to others. Then when the new disenfranchised group rises, they too exclude another group. History is just a cycle. Free will? Liberty? Rights? There are no such things. We are all victims. And at the first opportunity we get, we become the perpetrators. We become the tools of history so it can demonstrate the inevitability of events. So it can show us how perfectly incapable and naive we are at governing ourselves and doing the right thing. History and even contemporary events teaches us this painful lesson… again. and again. and again.
What can we do to break the cycle? How do we paint the future? 
Maybe this is why people don’t care for each other. Maybe they know inside that it’s all a farce… that pursuing individual benefit will always outweigh any rewards borne from efforts to achieve a just society. Maybe that’s why it’s in our nature to “just live in the present”, never learning from history, and never preparing for the future of the generations after us. That’s why it’s hurling itself towards ruination.  
So why should I fight for the preservation of a specie that does not even want to survive? Why should anyone defend it?
I’m sick of this. Maybe it’s time to give humanity what it really wants. What it needs… In order to change. 
I think only a drastic and completely overturning event will convince people to open their minds and eyes to the truth. Otherwise, when will people see the intrinsic value in justice? When will we live together equally, really and completely together without prejudice and hate towards people who are different? When will we learn to love one another? 
Maybe a global cataclysmic humanitarian catastrophe is really warranted. Perhaps it’s even long overdue. 
My life’s wish is to see it all happen… to experience the earth-shattering and astronomical events… feel the fear of society in my veins… then through all that still see hope emerging in people’s eyes… and be present as mankind rebuilds everything from scratch. 

The Confusing Nature of Human Beings

Watching videos online is probably one of mankind’s most used method of entertainment (and procrastination) these days. By simple observation, it’s easy to determine what people like and don’ like, depending on the number of views. It surprises me that the most watched are either the most horrible videos… as well as the kindest and most heartwarming. Polarized much?
So, it tells me that people are desperate for humanity. They want to see acts of kindness and generosity.
But there’s also a lot of people who like bad things and participate in the propagation of malice and immorality.
Is the population of the world polarized between good people and bad ones?
No. Definitely not.
People who watch offensive videos and make hateful comments are the more often same ones whose hearts are melt by genuinely humanitarian videos, the same ones who appreciate and congratulate the doers of a kind selfless act.
Maybe the fact that ‘bad’ and ‘good’ videos are the ones most watched in the net proves the duality and complexity of man.
People don’t like ‘moderate’, unfeeling videos. they want the extremes, based on what their situations and moods are at the moment.
Does this mean man is intrinsically good, and is just spiraled into the bad because of the world’s influence?
Or is it that man is inherently bad, and it’s just his/her choices that sometimes makes the good triumph despite the darkness inside?
Is it the world’s fault or must man constantly fight against their urges?
I don’t know.
All I know is that mankind themselves fill the world too much inhumanity as if they are hell bent on destroying everything in its path, but they all want hold to on the the little bit of kindness left. They keep looking for that elusive hope to bask in the lightness surrounded by darkness.
Now, is this dichotomy what it means to be human? Perhaps. I don’t know.

Castle in the Sky AND Wall-E

What would have caused the [ancient civilization of Laputa] to abandon their advanced technology to live modestly on earth?

laputa-castleIn Ghibli’s Castle in the Sky, the character Shita boldly faced the villain who wanted to use the technology left by the Laputans for his own agenda. When confronted with this question, she answered that it was because they [Laputans] realized that without love, all the technology and comforts of life was useless. They needed to go back to earth to start anew… because that’s where they came from, and that’s where everything goes back to.

I admit I never fully understood her answer when I first heard it. Why do you need to give up everything, when you can just repair what’s broken, right? Humanity certainly did not need to go back to the middle ages to experience love. They just needed to change the structure and the system. They CAN change and love again even while holding on to lavishness, comfort, and technology.
Then, one day I decided randomly to watch Wall-E. In the end, the humans who spent generations in space and have evolved into useless fat consumers, fought for the control of their ship in order to go back to Earth. They left the ship’s security and started planting to revive the land, even though they had to give up all their fully-automated robot-managed easy lifestyle. As the credits rolled, it showed pictures of how civilization evolved once again. New buildings were built, some were reconstruction of abandoned ones, people started fishing and trading and traveling the old fashioned way… all the while the ship Axiom accumulated undergrowth with time, all the former glory and wonders of technology vanished. It’s tragic somehow. Yet, it’s also rejuvenating in that it was a time for new beginnings. It’s like staring at the last line of a book and deciding to finally close it and put it in a shelf. This was an opportunity for humanity to live and experience life once again! Imagine all the adventures, the mysteries, the knowledge that people will get to uncover and experience. Imagine a new history! Clearly, the gains of abandoning advancement to pave way for a new story is definitely worth it.
It just struck me how, after generations of abandonment, people would probably start forgetting the consequences of living in such mindless luxury. They would dig the remains of ancient technology and learn through it. Instead of looking into the future, as we do in this generation, people would look in the past to search for answers.wall-e_12
The problem begin s when humans become greedy again. I mean, it’s bound to happen. With the first generation personally experiencing the events, the information will readily available and could be passed down to, say, a couple more generations. But what about the fourth, fifth… what happens when the legacy of the first settlers fade and become corrupted with time? When humans forget their responsibility to earth once again, and begin looking for personal benefits at the expense of others in every turn. When discontent, selfishness, desire for dominance settles into their hearts… what would happen then? I tell you what, history is going to repeat itself… and that’s the real tragedy.

Wandering thoughts about doing good and its benefits

First of all, I want to warn people who might think this entry is interesting.
It’s not… believe me, it’s not. This is not an attempt to keep you hooked.
In fact, this is a direct result of my thoughts wandering.
This piece has no intro, body, and conclusion.
I advice you not to expect anything from it but the author’s confused, messy, and jumbled up thoughts.
Now, if you still want to read after that, please do… but I won’t be responsible for wasting your time. You’ve been warned.

There is something about social responsibility that I realized just recently (7 months ago…)
I’ve always wondered why we need to follow the rules… why it is so important to be a “law abiding citizen”.

To the young me, it seems that the rules are a restriction; something that limits what I can do for myself.
If not for those rules, I can go out of the house and play with whoever I want as much as I want.
I can disregard my parents’ advice and do dangerous (often stupid) things, like jump on roofs.
After a while, I found out that all those were for my own personal saftey.
So, okay… I need to follow rules because it is for my benefit.
I got that.

But what if following the rules won’t benefit me?
Being conscious of the world around made me realize that some rules aren’t there to serve my purpose.
Why is it bad to steal and take advantage of others?
Why do I need to pay attention to the needs of strangers who I don’t care about one bit?
If I am able to do those things, won’t I be better off… even at the expense of others?
If I take from them, I’ll have more.

I got part of the answer in Church.
We are supposed to show compassion and kindness to people, even strangers, because it glorifies God.
We are indebted to Him for creating us and letting us live on earth; He owns us.
Therefore, we must do His bidding and take care of the land and each other.

I thought “problem solved!”. Now all I have to do is convince others so that they’ll do the same!
Then I met people who come from different beliefs.
They believe wholeheartedly on their own truths… what right do I have to impose my own version of the truth?

So then the same problem was back… without the aspect of religion, why is it still right to do good?
If all I can depend on is solid reasoning and logic, could I still defend goodness?
What if disregarding the rules could ONLY benefit the doer of the bad, why would anyone want follow the law?
Say you can’t get caught, why do you need to hold back when the result is + for you?

Needless to say, I was trapped in the question for a while.
Then I found out something that would help.
+ for me = – for others = – to all = – to me
Using this logic, I can say that taking advantage of others is really stupid.
Even for greedy people, if they really consider what’s best for them, they’ll see that being kind to others and following the rules is the only way they can ensure a long term and stable return.
Let me give an example:
Say in a fictional village where everybody is a stranger to everybody else, they’re forced to live together.
They immediately formulate rules to live by.
Then, someone starts to steal believing this action will benefit him. It will benefit him, yes.
But only in the short term. Eventually, this action will cause distrust and anonymity to everyone…
and if someone else decides to offend again, the discord turns to open hostility.
Instead of a preferrably peaceful community, the hostile village requires everyone to constantly hold their guard up and look out for potential offenders.
In the long run, it is always beneficial to follow the rules.
Plus for JUST me that results to minus for others will result to minus for all, which is inevitably minus for me too.

So, apparently, I need to be good because it keeps me safe, because it is also righteous as it is logical.

But I still have another question.
If I eliminate righteousness and logic… do I still need to do good?
Do I need to follow the rules if I know that no matter what… it won’t benefit me?
If I will be blamed and persecuted for being good, do I do it?
If there is no return in the short run, long run, if God won’t reward me, if there’s absolutely nothing to gain from good, why must we do it?

My only answer at this point is that it feels right to me…
I know that’s subjective, and I can’t argue with others who feel otherwise, but that’s the only answer I can give.
It feels right to do what’s right.
I don’t know what else.


A Short Note on the Definition of Justice


“maintenance or administration of what is just especially by the impartial adjustment of conflicting claims” — merriam-webster.com

“the quality of being fair or reasonable” — oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com

By the above references, the definition of justice seems fairly simple enough: reasonable and impartial judgment. 

But like any other intangible model, society has a way of twisting its meaning… constantly stretching and rationalizing until the word finally suits their desired version.

Justice is NOT letting the minority be heard. It is NOT defending the weak, NOR is it assisting the poor.

Justice hears EVERYONE. It protects the weak AND the strong. It helps both rich and poor.

The common misconception in many societies today is that when somebody is born with all the misfortune one can think of, they automatically deserve to receive aid. When somebody is born with all the wealth and blessing in the world, they have a responsibility to give back. People think it is JUST and RIGHT to “take some from the rich and give to the needy”.  

If you think that’s natural, that it is how things should be… then you are wrong.

Let me make something clear, I’m not saying people should just go on their own ways without helping anybody. It would be great if the unfortunate and downtrodden receives help, but they don’t necessarily deserve it. They are not entitled to some form of automatic help. It would be great if those blessed with material possessions give back to the needy, but it is not their responsibility. They should not be pressured to do so if they are unwilling. Helping should come from the heart, and only if they really want to.

Justice doesn’t work one way. When we say impartial, it means justice sides with no one but the truth and what is right. It does not mean taking from somebody who has more to give to somebody who has less just to balance the scales. Doing that would be unfair to the one who has more. Who cares if they have more? They still deserve to be treated fairly. 

In another example: Say in a typical state, the minority is oppressed and instructed not to say something against the majority. Because this is unfair, the minority gradually learns to fight back and soon, the minority is heard and the majority is quieted down. Now the previous majority is afraid to voice their thoughts against the previous minority in fear of retaliation and conflict. This is not justice, merely a reversal of roles. Justice means nobody can dictate and oppress somebody else. Just as anti-gays cannot tell pro-gays to shut up, pro-gays cannot tell anti-gays to shut up as well. Just as racists should not judge others by the color of their skin, anti-racists should not have the right to tell them what to believe.

As long as one side is trying to convince the other that they are right, they are still wrong.

See? Simple. If justice is fair, it must go both ways.